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sometimes, i feel like my life is a giant pool. and at the shallow
end is saftey and nice warm waters. over along one edge, the ground
is covered in sharp objects and i have to tread water carefully to get
over there to where i can rest my feet again. straight ahead from
the saftey zone is deep DEEP water, and i don't know how to swim the best.
but when i do swim out that way, i'm never alone. i'm always with
someone. the last few time's i've taken a swim out there, i've been
kinda left alone and had two choices : either sink or swim bitch.
lucky for me, i can swim pretty good on my own. it's just not safe
out there and thats the only problem.
at the far end of the deep side, there's a high diving board. and
i've only jumped off that plank 2 times in my life. and both times
i've gotten a little bit bruised and battered, and i was left alone in
the deep end swimming by myself.
on the other side of the pool, there are warm waters. but there is
also a current, that if i get sucked under i'm doomed.
no one is allowed in the safe area but me. I've never let anyone
in and i don't plan on letting anyone in ever. I think the person
that i actually allow into my safe area is the one i will marry....that
is if i ever get married.
the question is, I like ryan a whole lot. but do i dare leave my
safe area and go swimming with him in the actual "pool"...the part thats
not too deep, but gets deeper a way out. or do i stay where i am
and be safe and just have fun?
i guess there are perrils everywhere in my pool, in the safe area there's
always the question of should i go or should i stay.
and i think i'm putting on my suit, and i'm about to take a little swim.
just because thats life and sometimes you've just got to swim, and
take a chance at sinking.