.and friday it was all sick and what not....so to make it better we fed it and like...in the middle of some more fun we were having with coco the furby....she like died!!  the thing fucking broke....kristy has to take it back, the motor inside it like jammed and it just stopped moving.  but it was so funny cos it stopped moving with it's eyes half shut and it's mouth hanging open...so it looked a little like this....

<--dead coco

which is just goddamn funny.  we had some more fun with the dead furby and my webcam...because we are both sick twisted individuals....you can see the fun we had  here .  It was very very amusing....great great fun.  kristy is so great =))).  and then the night before that we decided we were gonna take my daddy's el camino (this thing is a piece of shit) for a spin.  and we took it out to my school parking lot....and did like 2 donughts..or half doughnuts....we just fishtailed the thing around on the gravel.  it was probably one of the funniest moments in my life =)  good fun...great fun =)

My angela angel is at woodstock.....I REALLY WOULD KILL TO BE THERE WITH HER...just cos my mom is annoying.  actually no....it's cos i love angi a lot and i miss her...and i would really like to spend more time with her...i have to drag her down to the park sometime. have her meet all of my little friends....candy, amy, rachael, missy, genie, bridget, mandy, amanda, tom, jay, ryan, seth, jesse, smitty, jon...

shit...speaking of jon he threw me for quite a loop last night...it actually upset me a lot.  We went to see "The Haunting" last night...which was cool for like a while...cos it had neat special effects...and it was kinda creepy....but then it go so cheesy and stupid it ended up sucking ass BAD.  sucking my fat ass....anywho.......kristy and i wanted to go with alot of people....we called up becky, and joey and asked them to go with us and they came.  and we got to the park and captain jesse and his girlfriend janelle were going....and we asked jon to go with us too.  and he came.....

well the movie happened...and we went out for ice cream....and blady blah....then we came back to mainstreet and i sat and talked to hesse boy (shane), who likes kristy...but we'll get to that later.  so i'm talking to him and i go to say hi to missy and talk w/seth, patrice, and more and other people.  and kristy and jon go off walking around the block.....and i stayed there.  and then they come back from their walk and i'm like...blady blah.....nothing big. 

but then kristy and i get in the car...and for a while i thought maybe her and jon would like..hook up or something.....so i was curious and i asked her what they talked about or what they did.  and she was like...."jon still likes you...and he's so depressed" and she explained to me how she explained to him that when i started to hang out w/ryan...he just backed off so i figured okay, ryan likes me you don't...thats fine...and i left it at that.  and then jon started dating rachael...and so i didn't even think about it again.  but yeah.....anyway...he was all like..."ryan's a player...he was a player his sophomore and junior years..." and kristy was like "yeah...but is he a player now?"  and she just said jon was quiet....

all i know is i feel bad....cos i actually did like jon...i liked him and ryan both a lot....but ryan jumped in and took the chance and now i'm in love with him for it.  I like jon....but theres a few things i don't like about him either.  but I am in love with ryan and until that changes i'm going to stay with him as long as he wants me too.....who knows how long that will be.

but i feel bad.....i just feel bad because they're friends....and what not.  but i guess it's not my fault.....

but this does bring up the question in my crazy little head again...."WHAT THE HELL DO THESE PEOPLE SEE IN ME!!!!"  ryan, jon, seth Ricther (whom is also apparantly in love with me..yeah right), any one.

i'm just me....just little old me....i have no special talents, i'm not that amusing, i can be cute at times but big frickin deal....i don't know.