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| Yeah...so i wasnt' here when jon called.....i wasn't here the last
3 times he's called. I talked to him on monday night .... the sweetie......and
i haven't talked to him since. i miss him like hell......seriously......i'm
like so worried he's pissed at me cos i haven't been home. Like seriously.....i
don't know why i'm so worried. I would be on the net right now accept
i'm afraid he'll call.....really afraid he'll call. and i want to
talk to him bad....oh my god. I'm like so scared he's pissed at me.....really
scared that he's pissed at me.....i don't know why he would be though. I mean he knew i was going to malarky's last night......he knew i was....and i even told him i wouldn't be home until like 1:30-2:00 ish...and i wasn't....and he had called at midnight...and my mom told him to call back at 1:00....but the stupid bitch (not jon) she left the goddamn phone off the hook so when he did call back last night......it was busy. course he called this morning and said he hadn't called cos he fell asleep and he was sorry. and i was asleep when he called this morning.....i'm so worried that he's pissed at me it's not even funny. ring.....phone ring damnit ring.......god damnit ring ring ring ring........FUCKING RING!!!!!! why would he be pissed at me though? i mean he has to understand that i worked today....adn that last night i went out.....and what not.....god the poor boy sounded almost pissed on the answering machine......or just really depressed. god i miss him so much.....i miss the way he holds me, the way he touches me. i'm like almost ready to cry cos i'm soooooo unbelievably worried that he's pissed off at me cos i haven't been home. I don't know why i'm so worried. I don't know...like at all.....I am so scared of him stoping liking me or something. cos i really REALLY really like him. I love him......i say it to him, i mean......yeah we say it to each other now =). it's great but at the same time i'm so scared......cos i mean ..... god i do like him a lot....so so much. i love that boy to death....he is sooooooo great. yes i'm wearing my heart on my sleeve again.....fuck off =) i don't care. this is my diary and i can write however i feel in it. so there...=PPPPPPPPPP I MISS JON!!!!!!!!!!! PHONE RING GODDAMNIT!!!!!!! ring ring ring ring ring.. course...i know the minute it rings i'm gonna like pounce on it.....and then like do something stupid. and or it'll scare the shit out of me....cos i'll be expecting it.....i dunno......JUST RING!!! jon call me please....please don't be pissed off at me!!!! Well here's a little about my last night at malarky's. I went w/kristy and nikki....there so cute. and lindsey, heather, amanda enderton, holly beacom, and like a lot of other people i knew were there. anywho...lesly...another girl i know that was there....like was dancing...and this guy came up behind her and just started like getting on her....and it scared her i think....but she didn't do anything....she just kept dancing =) it was rather amusing. but then later he tried to do the same thing to me.....and iwas like "no.....sorry....got a boyfriend" and he just wandered away thank god =). anywho....later this andy guy that i met there was like dancing with us....and he asked me to dance and i was like "nope...i'm gonna sit this one out." so he and kristy danced for a while...untill he told her she was too tall.....which pissed me off cos she's not. kristy is beautiful.....and people who can't see that need fucking contacts. anywho...the later this siris guy hit on kristy....then hit on me. it was so funny too cos i shot him down bad!!!! "so whats your name?" "staci" "oh i see...you a senior? 17" "yeah...:" "good call...where you from?" "sioux rapids..." "i'm from here..." "i see....*staci continues dancing*" "so where's the boyfriend...." "*staci grins and stops dancing* the boyfriend? oh he's in michigan w/a friend on vacation....there going to like a nascar race." "really..." "yeah......he gets back on monday. I can't wait....i miss him a lot......he's got such strong arms..." *siris proceeds to leave* "oh i see...well see ya round" *staci proceeds to dance* hahahhahahaha...it was funny. I MISS JON!!!!!!!! RING PHONE RING!!! so anyhow...then smitty....who came over to my house earlier that day and chit chatted with me about his girlfriend and jonathan...told me some interesting storys about my dear boy =).. hahhaha....i like smitty. he's so cute. so anywho....smitty came into malarky's...and then he left with us...and we went to ioco...and got some food....and then smitty got blocked in by a cop that had pulled some kids over. like 6 girls and one guy in a car....it was so funny.....and they blocked smitty in. so nikki, kristy, and i waited with him for a while. anyway....apparantly, when i left ioco....kristy was still in there and these guys behind us were like "hey that was the chick with the nice ass"......and kristy was like "i'm gonna tell her you said that". and then she left...leaveing her candy bar in there which was thrown at her later by the dickheads. i can't believe they said that. what is it about butts? or my butt...it's just there....it's not nice...or great.....i'm not sexy...or hot. i'm Just me damnit....just plain old blonde hair blue eyed staci. nothing special. ANYWHO!!!! and then smitty's lil brother nate like was talking to us adn i was like "i'm jon's girfriend do you remember me?" and he was like "barely...wahts your name? oh who cares" and i wanted to like feed him full of shit cos he was half drunk....and i wanted to be like "my name is britney." and then 5 minutes later say my name was angi...or nicole....or something. just get him going....but he didn't pay attention to me after that. cos nikki is really hot and cute =). anyway...then dose came over and smitty was like "dose...get in the car. get the fuck in the car and drive off...go on now". which was really funny. and then some ryan brock guy asked me if i was going to like have sex with someone....and i was just like "uh...yeah" and smitty goes "no she's not........" and he looks at me and he's liek "your saving yourself for jonny boy" and i just smiled all big. I LOVE JON!!!!!! and he's got until 1:30 to call......cos then i'm publishing this real quick and going to bed. I'm watching the video from teh first party i ever had. I like record my life on video tape....it was like a week after james and i had started going out.....so it was a LONG fucking time ago.......but its' a cute little video. it was fun at that party..... i miss jon soooooooo much right now!! seth richter is soo cute =) i love that boy. speaking of seths.... seth norris is offically the first person to piss me off really bad in 3 years. I am soooooo angry at him right now....and i really REALLY want to talk to jon about it cos seth is such a backstabber to him. goddamnit it makes me mad. I MISS MY JONATHAN!!!! dude.....i just took one of those damn e-mail quizzes and it said that jon was my soulm |