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What is he thinking????
when he just sits there and stares at me like i'm something.....or like he's lost in my eyes......it's so crazy i just want him to start spilling everything he feels out and about and just...just wow......i just want him to like spill it all...it's like if you could just speak your exact thoughts at the time you think them.....wow......i want him to do that =).
"how about the boys?"
"your the reason i live...your the reason i die, your the reason i give, when i break down and cry...dont' need no reason why...baby baby baby, your my angel....come and save me tonight, your my angel come and make it all right, your my angel, come and save me tonight..."
aerosmith...rock gods.
speaking of rock gods apparantly AC/DC's new cd comes out on my birthday. Jon was real excited about this.....which is good. actually, it kinda upsets me.....cos it wont really be my birthday anymore...it'll be like "AC/DC day".....and that sucks. cos it always seems like on my big birthdays....everyone has something else going on. like on my 16th birthday, everyone forgot it.......EVERYONE....that sucked ass. but 17....i got a party....wooo...17....theres a pretty age.......
ehh..i wont bitch anymore. but yeah jon is excited about that =) he's so cute when he gets excited. I WISH HE WOULD E-MAIL ME though....god i've sent him like 5 letters.....and i've gotten 1 response. actually whats funny is the fact that thats why i gave up on him the first time....cos he never mailed me back, and i thought he lost interest.
oh well....i love him now......i just wish that he loved me as much as i loved him.
crystal is a lucky girly =).
joel mills is so cute...i love that kid to pieces.
"watch that white kid rock"
"tell me what it takes to let you go, tell me how the pain's supposed to go, tell me how you can sleep..in the night, without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice.....tell me what it takes to let you go"
"angels fall with out you there..."
we just had a pep ralley....everyone screamed for me...it was the coolest
thing ever....they all were like "go staci" it was so awesome.
*memory #12*
my sophomore year, i had a huge HUGE HUGE crush on a man who will go
unnamed. but yes, i fell in love with him. and sometiems i
think i'm still in love with him...even though i've gone throguh james,
and ryan, and gary, and i'm with jon now. whom i love very much...but
sometimes i still think i have feelings for this man. i never do
anything about it though cos i'm so happy in the relationship that i'm
in....especially with jon.
anywho...so i had this huge crush, love on him. and i wanted to ask
him to homecoming..or i wanted him to ask me. i dropped a few hints
but not too many, and i actually turned down my friend mike to wait for
this boy to ask me. he never did....but he asked alissa (co-captain
of my drill team now). and they stared going out.......jelously insane
as i was...i kept quiet as a mouse. then they broke up...and just
as i was about to make a move, i found out he was going out w/another girl
named beth......once again my dreams were shattered. but in the time
between he and beth we got kinda friendly with each other...and even when
he and beth started going out we kept on talking a lot. and finally.....james
asked me out, and i said yes. end of story right?
there's always a twist..
about a week after jamesy and i had started going out......my friend travis
had this conversation with the boy.
"so hows beth" travis says..
"oh..we actually broke up like 3 weeks ago"
"oh....i'm sorry i had no clue"
"its okay not many people know..."
"you okay?"
"yeah i'm fine..."
***Silence***
"you know...it's really a shame. cos i know this wonderful girl who
had the biggest crush on you...and she.."
boy cuts travis off.."staci right?"
"yeah...how'd you know?"
"i just did..."
****more silence****
boy starts in again..."yeah it is a shame. it really is....cos
i liked her. all she had to do was ask..."
moral of the story???
never ever ever hesitate to tell someone how you feel
about them. if you love them, say so...if you like them, let them
know. you never know what you could be missing.